Almost a week in the apartment

It´s been lmost a week since I moved to the apartment, and it´s going better than I thought. Especially the nights. It´s not too bad going to bed at night, even if I´m alone. Now I hve my dog and I´m glad for that, it makes it a little easier to be here alone. I don´t mind being alone during the days, but I´ve never liked being home alone when it´s time for bed.
When I have lived here for awhile I´m sure I´m not going to think much about it. And even if Troy is still barking at sounds, he is much better than the first two days, so it will be easier on him too.

Poor Troy

We moved to an appartment last Monday and it´s been a little had on him. He´s used to living in a house, not an apartment. His first night here he was very anxious, couldn´t sleep, barking at sounds, wanting to play in the middle of the night. I wasn`t sleeping much either. Every time I was about to fall asleep he was barking at something.
It´s eacher for him now, he´s not as anxious, and doesn´t bark at everything. I think he is the bedroom right now, probably on his bed. He usually wants to be where I am, and if I get up or look where he is, he comes to be with me.
After our morning walk we have a cuddle and resting moment. I´m sitting on the floor and he is lying beside me or partly on me slepping. After awhile I get tired too :)

Bruno Mars - Just the way you are

This is my new favorite song. I just love it.
Doesn´t everyone want someone to sing them a song like this? I would love it if someone I like sang me this song.

Camp Rock 2 The final jam

Ever since I heard of Camp Rock 2 I`ve wanted to see it, and yesterday I was finlly able to watch it. And I love it. I think it´s better than Camp Rock, and I love the songs. I´ve had some of them stuck in my head pretty much all day.
I´m definitely going to watch it again. I saw a little of it this morning, but in Swedish and it´s never as good when it´s dubbed.
I think Demi Lovato has grown a lot and her singing voice has developed a lot. I wish I had a singing voice like hers. I think she is great. Nick Jonas has also grown a lot since the first movie. It´s been two years I think, and a lot can happen in two years, but I still wouldn´t think he is only 17. I think he looks older.
Kevin is doing a good job again, playing Jason. For some reason he is good as that kind of character. It´s the same in JONAS. I don´t know. He is just very good playing that funny stupid person.

No love for me

Since last time I was interested in a guy I´ve always thought that next time I fall for someone, it´s going to be someone who likes me too. But obviously you can`t decide that. It would be weird if you could decide who to fall in love with and who not to fall in love with. But I just want some luck, one time, that is all I ask for.
I haven´t seen the guy now for almosst 2 weeks. I saw him a little last week, and only one time, at a little distance this week, so I haven´t been able to talk to him. Just because I decided I would take a chance and ask him out. I haven´t even been able to talk to talk to the girl who is there painting, and see what she knew about him, just because I decided maybe I should try that, so at least he would know I was interested.
What should I do now? Request a song on the radio that he would probably not even listen to, and still not know how to contact me, if he would be interested in me.
Just forget it, give up and move on as fast as I can. Hopefully I will see him soon, but with my luck, or lack of luck, I will probably never see him again. Or it will take quite some time.
I feel like Tom. Like I don´t believe in love for me. I want to believe that there is someone for everyone, but I feel more like the one who is supposed to be without. I think I´ll stop believeing in love....
If there is a Faith or whatever, he/she is probablu up there somewhere, or wherever he/she is, thinking that I should be without love. I have a lot to give, but just because U really want someone, love and feel loved, I can´t get it...

A new crush

I got a new crush. It´s kind of fun to be interested in someone again. But nothing will happen, cause I will probably never see him again.
The last 3 weeks of my summer job I cleaned student apartments/rooms, just like the first 2 weeks. Now there were two painters there painting the house facades. One of them is about my age, very cute and seems nice. And I realized after a little while that I have a crush on him.
I haven´t talked to him much, but we´ve said hello when we have walked by each other or he have been outside the apartment I´m going in to. The first timme he said hello he was walking to the short side of the house he was painting, and he looked at me for a few seconds before he said hello. And after that we`ve always said hello when we´ve passed each other. One time he didn´t say hello, when he and the other guy was walking to the house they painted at the beginning of the street and I was going to an apartment at the end of the street, but then I gave him a little smile.
I wish I had talked a litte to him, just asking how it´s going o something like that. I mean, that doesn´t mean anything, but maybe I kind of could have seen if he liked me or not. Now I have no idea. And I will pobably never see him again since I worked my last day last Friday.
Today me and my sister walked through that street, I wanted to see him again, and had decided to try and ask him out. But I didn´t even see him. It was raining but we did see one girl painting. But this guy wasn´t there, so I couldn´t even try. I`m going to try on Wednesday again, but if he´s not there then either, I will probably enver see him again.
I don´t want to like someone I`m not going to see. I´m finally interested in someone again, I decided to talk to him and take a chance and ask him out, and just because of that I didn´t see him. Maybe it was just a summer job for him too. I hope not..

Great time in Spain

On Wednesday we went to Spain. The flying went well and itwasn´t as bad as I thought it would be. But the landing took forever and at one point I just felt that I wanted to be on the ground. R tried to scare me, and I think he scared himself too. He said he had respect for flying, and on Saturday when we talked about it, I think we talked about the flight home, and he said that he had been scared. Well, I would probably have scared myself too, if I had done like him and talked about birds flying into the engines, and what height we needed to survive if we crashed and stuff like that.
When we had landed at the airport in Alicante and got our rental cars we drove around for about 3 hours trying to find the house we were going to stay in. R said he knew where we were going but obviously he didn´t. We drove around a lot when we were in Spain, cause he didn´t know were we were going most of the time, even if he said he did.
We tanned and swam, did a very short shopping trip cause we didn´t have time since it took us so long to get to the mall. We had a five course dinne at the Benidorm palace and watched a great show. The dancers were really good and it was a good mix of Flamenco, seventies inspired and dance like that. I think it was mostly Flamenco though. No surprise there, it was Spain :) I really enjoyed the show and so did my co-workers that I went to Spain with. It was a little sad we weren´t allowed to take pictures during the show though. I would have wanted some pictures.
I bought a suitcase in Spain, cause my bag had a little hole in the zip. J and I think it was L and maybe K too thought I should by a suitcase but I had thought about it, since my dad wanted me to buy some whiskey for him too. He wanted 3 bottles, but I didn´t find what he wanted so he had to settle with one. I probably didn´t have to buy a suitcase, but I did anyway. On Saturday when we wnet to see a church and eat at a resturant and walk around a small market I guess you can call it, and looked it the shops, I bought a nice necklace. So at least I bought something fun.
The house we stayed in was very nice and had a pool, but I wouldn´t want to live in that house. Stay for a short period of time, sure, but not live there. It had no garden, and it wasn`t that easy to drive upp that hill.
I think I would have wanted to stay one more day or two, but at the same time it was nice to come again. And now that I know I can do the flying, I´m sure I will try to go abroad again soon.
Some of the things that happened while we were in Spain feels like they`ve happened before, or something like it. But I´m pretty used to that by now.