Great time in Spain

On Wednesday we went to Spain. The flying went well and itwasn´t as bad as I thought it would be. But the landing took forever and at one point I just felt that I wanted to be on the ground. R tried to scare me, and I think he scared himself too. He said he had respect for flying, and on Saturday when we talked about it, I think we talked about the flight home, and he said that he had been scared. Well, I would probably have scared myself too, if I had done like him and talked about birds flying into the engines, and what height we needed to survive if we crashed and stuff like that.
When we had landed at the airport in Alicante and got our rental cars we drove around for about 3 hours trying to find the house we were going to stay in. R said he knew where we were going but obviously he didn´t. We drove around a lot when we were in Spain, cause he didn´t know were we were going most of the time, even if he said he did.
We tanned and swam, did a very short shopping trip cause we didn´t have time since it took us so long to get to the mall. We had a five course dinne at the Benidorm palace and watched a great show. The dancers were really good and it was a good mix of Flamenco, seventies inspired and dance like that. I think it was mostly Flamenco though. No surprise there, it was Spain :) I really enjoyed the show and so did my co-workers that I went to Spain with. It was a little sad we weren´t allowed to take pictures during the show though. I would have wanted some pictures.
I bought a suitcase in Spain, cause my bag had a little hole in the zip. J and I think it was L and maybe K too thought I should by a suitcase but I had thought about it, since my dad wanted me to buy some whiskey for him too. He wanted 3 bottles, but I didn´t find what he wanted so he had to settle with one. I probably didn´t have to buy a suitcase, but I did anyway. On Saturday when we wnet to see a church and eat at a resturant and walk around a small market I guess you can call it, and looked it the shops, I bought a nice necklace. So at least I bought something fun.
The house we stayed in was very nice and had a pool, but I wouldn´t want to live in that house. Stay for a short period of time, sure, but not live there. It had no garden, and it wasn`t that easy to drive upp that hill.
I think I would have wanted to stay one more day or two, but at the same time it was nice to come again. And now that I know I can do the flying, I´m sure I will try to go abroad again soon.
Some of the things that happened while we were in Spain feels like they`ve happened before, or something like it. But I´m pretty used to that by now.

Apparently you´re not supposed to want things

Well, at least not if you`re me.
I´ve been held back for so many years, but now that I actually want to try things and have the courage to, it´s like I can`t. I have a 9 month old dog, and I´ve wanted a dog for almost 7 years, from the time we had to put our other dog to sleep. Now I´m really happy that I got him.
But it´s like he is keeping me from doing things in a way. Since if I go somewhere, my parents have to take care of him. I have asked them, but I don´t want them to feel obligated.
I want to see if I can get an internship at one or two teen magazines, but I probably wont. Cause then they ahve to take care of him. The´ve kind of said that I should go if I want to, or my mom anyway. but at the same time they don´t want me to.
And I will pobably have to live on my savings from my summer job. But I think I can do that for a month or two. I just need a place to live. But they seem to think I will go there and then see if i can get an internshi. And that is not what I have planned. Of course I have to see if I can get an internship before I go, and if I have somewhere to live.
Am I being egoistic?
I´ve been waiting for so many things for so long. I don`t want to wait for things anymore.
But I probably will.

Losing someone

I just watched an episode of One Tree Hill. Hayley and her sister lost their mother. The whole episode was filled with emotions and was so sad. I was crying. How can you not when someone is losing someone? Even if it´s just in a movie or TV show. It´s still real.
If I lost my mother, my whole world would crash. If I lost my dad or my sister my hole world would crash. I would hide in a dark corner and probably never come out. I would dig this deep black hole and stay there.
My sister is such a big part of me I don´t know what I would do if I lost her. A big part of me would be lost and I would feel so alone. Same if I lost my parents. We have a great relationship and I love them very much. The thought of losing them...

Tokio Hotel Humanoid City Live DVD

I can´t wait for that DVD. I think it´s great that they recorded the show, and I can´t wait to see it again. It´s always nice when you can see a show that you really like whenever you like. And I think I will watch it several times. I really enjoyed the show. Too bad H is not here to relive it with me :) She was very good company for the concert :)
They will also release a live album at the same time as the DVD
They just released a new music video, for Dark side of the sun. I don´t know how many times I`ve watched the video, and everytime I wish I could go back to Stockholm and the concert.
When Tom started playing, he is just so great at playing the guitar. And to actually see how much they love being on stage. I can`t imagine them doing anything else.
I have pre-ordered the DVD, and I can´t wait til I get it.

How can you recognize something you haven´t seen?

Sometimes when I watch a movie I recognize things. Some times you remember you have seen the movie before, but sometimes it´s the first time you see it. It has happened several times, and I´m sure it will happen several more times.
Like, I recognize things from Avatar. And when I saw it was the first time I saw it. I was supposed to see it at the movies with my sister, but we never did. I saw it with a friend, and there were some parts that felt a little familiar. And when I thought about the movie afterwards I recognized things. Like the end when Neytiri goes to Jack and find him on the floor and gives him oxygen. And they lay their hand on the other one´s cheek and say " I see you" I know I have seen that before, but it was the first time I saw the movie. But I really recognized it. I have seen it before. Somehow.
And I think I recognize some things from Prince of Persia. But the same there, it was the first time I saw the movie. I know some things were in the trailer, but the things I recognize that weren´t?
It so weird when you watch a movie and you recognize things, but you shouldn´t, cause you´ve never seen it before.
Can someone explain?

Prince of Persia

Last night me, my sister and our friend went to see Prince of Persia. I thought it was really good, and I`m definitely going to see it again. My sister is going to buy it when it´s available on DVD, so I´m sure we will watch it a couple of times or more.
I really liked Jake Gyllenhaal as Dastan. I think he did a really good job. And I liked his look, the hair, the clothes. He looked good. And I really liked the character, and I think it was nice to see Jake play a part like that. He was cool and confident.
I also liked Gemma Arteron who plays Tamina. I liked the character, and I think she did a good job.
I think it was impressive when they jumped between rooftops, or between rooftops or down from a building and through a window or something. And I can say that I would not like to try. It looked very cool, and "Dastan" was really good, but I would not like to try.
The movie was quite funny sometimes, like when they were in the Valley of Slaves, or what it was called, and Tamina said something to Dastan and he didn´t know what to say.
I liked the special effects, I think they did a very good job. When they turned back the time, I think that was very nicely done.
I really liked the movie and I want to see it again soon.
I´ve tried not to think about the movie that much, but of course I have thought about it. But if I think too much, I will find something that I recognize, and I think I do recognize some things, even if this was the first time I saw the movie. But it has happened before.

I´m going to Spain!

I was so happy last Thursday when i found out I´m going to Spain in August. It´s with some of the people I work with. Our boss gave it to some of us as a part of the Christmas present. I wasn´t going at first, since I´m only working when they need me and not permanently emplyed. There was only going to be the permanently emplyed who was going to go, but J called last Thursday asn said that I could too. A thank you for working quite a lot, that they can count on me. I say no to work very rarely.
I´ve only been to Norway and Finland before so I´m very excited. And I`m glad that there was no problem getting a few days off from my summer job. But they are nice to deal with, so I never thought there would be any problems.
Now I just need a passport :)