Don`t want to be lonely anymore

I don´t want to be lonely anymore. I want to find love. I feel like I´m not supposed to have someone. I`m supposed to be left without and just dream about it.

A couple of days ago I had this dream where I was taking a course of some kind. It had to do with horses. The course leader was a guy in my age that I found mysef to be interested in, but I think I understood that towards the end of the dream. A girl I worked a little with during an internship was there too, and she was his sister or ebst friend.
When the course ended there was a like a meeting to finish and when it was done everyone left the room and I walked with this girl who was his best friend/sister and talked a little to her. She told me that the course leader liked me, and apparently he was looking for me. So I told her that I was going to go back and then he could find me there.
So when he came back to the rooom I was sitting there looking in a magazine. I didn´t look up until he sat down. He told me that I had put really bad music in hos iPod and then he played me a song. I`ll be - Edwin McCain. I sai that I love that song. And I do. Shortly after that I woke up..

A day or two later I dreamt that I was interested in this cool guy that looked like Liam Hemsworth. He was good looking and popular and the kind of guy that a lot of girls want and who get almost everyone he wants. And I felt like "Is he really interested in me?"

And i I ever find someone who finds me, who falls in love with me, I will probably feel that way. "Is he really interested in me?". I don´t know what it´s like and I`m not sure I could believe it really. I´m so used of being alone. I will never be popular, and I will enver be that good looking girl that every guy wants. Not that I necessarily want to be. I jsut want someone to like me. I don`t want to be lonely anymore.